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Saturday, June 15, 2013


whenever my mind is filled, this will always be the best place to be at.
I met someone. someone who I only have conversation once or twice and that's that. and we never meet again soon after. simply put, a random person who I took notice of, discreetly. over time, I left that place, the only place where I get to see her. carried on with life like how I always do.

things took a change for the past few months. disaster, a beautiful one though. I found her in the midst of everyone else. she found me too. definitely I have a very vivid memory of her. all because I took notice years back. well, I remember everyone who makes a mark in my life. communication with her was really tough and difficult for me. I'll always get flustered by her every reply, I guess it's insecurities which made me feel so. however, im sure I did fine. I remembered something, sincerity. I might be lacking in such communication, but sincerity takes over and compensate it.

it was really nice to share ideas and perspective with someone new. it was fresh, especially for me. it's been years since I've gotten really close to someone opposite. then slowly, feelings steps in and that's when things get messy. I'm the one who curved in despite knowing that I shouldn't have. I should have knocked my conscience over falling in with someone who's already attached. I pricked my own conscience. I did not plan to fall though. I just find comfort in things, and it happened to be you. I'm sorry but I really have no idea where things is leading to right now. I need a destination. if this leads to nowhere, I'll definitely remind myself not to commit myself. because commitment is a very heavy responsibility. and I am I overly protective on who I hand my heart over to.

 if you're taking me away, please be sincere.

9:39 PM

Tuesday, August 28, 2012


one fine day, i'll be able to reach out and someone will catch my hand and say let's do this, together.

3:04 AM

Thursday, July 26, 2012


I'm keeping my promise. Kids DO keep promises okay.
-cutelittlething

6:17 PM

Wednesday, June 27, 2012


happy birthday little friend. you may not read this. i don't know :/ but i do remember it's your day.
hope you've been well and healthy. stay happy cute little thing (:


10:31 PM

Sunday, June 17, 2012


i guess that we're all being used.
when you were at your lowest, who were there for you?
when you had trouble getting back on your feet, who were there to give you a lift up?
when you lost all hopes, who were there to tell you that friends will make things better?

i just realised how easily you can be manipulated. listening to a new cool friend who you call "brother" over old friends who were there for you when you're just nothing at all at that point of time. we know you too well. you will never have a thinking of your own. you always had to listen to others so that you can perceive what's going on.

at this stage, i, or we, don't blame anyone at all. everyone have their own way of thinking. maybe that's yours. we should have known. after that "fight" over being "true" friends, everything became awkward. but i don't care. we don't care. we know the real meaning of true friends. at least, the way we define it. we came together as a group as different individual. and we still have respect for a person for not telling their flaws upfront. why? because balls became bigger than brains. why wanna make things awkard and start having little childish quarrels? is that really worth telling the truth and being straightforward? at the expense of everyone's comfort. just like right now.

i know who my friends are. i know who will stand by me. because i understand that we still have that little respect for each other, that we don't dare/won't want to tell the truth about each other because it's better that way. if you were to know every single truth, i doubt you'll learn anything but to get angry over some stupid little childish matter.

it doesn't matter anymore. we helped you when you were down. we helped you when you didn't have faith in love/live. what matters is that we helped sincerely. all of us believed in sincerity from the beginning. maybe we don't show it. but if you can't feel it, then what's there in our long years of friendship? but what ever you do next in life, we just wish you the best.

6:47 AM

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