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Friday, August 14, 2009


fasting month is coming. very soon. the month where all muslims, have to be patient. i'm sure i'll be very very patient. i'll take in everything and pretend nothing happen. after the fasting month, it will be Hari Raya. and no, im not excited even a tiny bit. why? last year, i celebrated hari raya without my beloved grandma. this year, without my beloved grandpa. hari raya celebration has no meaning to it anymore. yes we still have each other as a family. but without them, things are not going to be the same. i miss my grandparents alot. am going to visit them on sunday.

i won't be shocked if ngee ann decide to kick me out.
exams are near. gonna take the paper i hate the most. if i fail again, yay. if i pass, YAY. if i fail any other module this semester, i think i should dig out my brain and wash it with milk.

i've been thinking. what am i going to do in the future? am i going to carry on with my interests and dreams? or am i going to STUDY hard and get into some UNIVERSITY and be a don't know what after that? i told myself, im not going to live to work. im going to work to live. i don't need a condo or bungalow or big house. i dont need to be a big shot in some company. i just wanna have fun working, lead a simple happy life(which also means financially stable) and be with the one i love in the future. and as long as i can take care of my parents and aunt, it's good enough because they are my responsibility.

when we were young, in primary school, our teacher or friends often ask, "What do you wanna be when you grow up?" or "What's your ambition?"
i;m trying to say that i'm walking aimlessly in life. i don't even know what i'm doing.
do you?

4:39 PM

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